welllllllllllllllllllllll... where do I start?
- appendics ruptured?
- pre mature baby Saylor?
- looking for an apartment?
- living at father in laws?
Yeah, I don't really want to talk about any of those things. I just want to talk about singing.
I freaking miss singing. I sing in my head because I can't sing out loud because I will wake my babies. it sucks. I miss singing, playing my guitar and writing dramatic songs. But now the drama I face is on a whole new level. No one wants to hear about getting thrown up on, or trying to find something for dinner, or not having any money. I'm not a country singer. So I want to say, I want to sing. For a long time. And I may want singing lessons.
I also, started exercising. I love it. It's challenging and fun. And I love Leandro, he is such a motivator:) And I lost over 7 pounds in like 2 weeks. It's great!
Marriage. Freaking hard. I never knew it would be so hard. I don't think I am very good at it. I want everything to be perfect, but, I don't want to try. It's awful. Being a lazy romantic is just not fun.
Apartment shopping. excited about that. I love finding a new place and making it my own. I just hope this next one is nice and fits our personalities.
Babies. Saylor and Amrielle. I love you girls. Saylor you are adorable! Amrielle you are beautiful and so smart and such a cute personality! I love both of you!
Patrick. We have two kids. CRAZY! No Wonder we are stressed.
Over all my testimony has been "tested" my happiness has been thwarted, and my stress levels have jumped sky high, I really think Patrick and I screwed ourselves by not choosing the right. We have had so many challenges that I never would have dreamed of. It's so hard to try to be better when you feel like you always make mistakes and God doesn't really want to help you. But knowing deep in side that He does and always loves you. It's crazy here at the Gatewood's. But I know.... think... hope... that everything will even out in the end. Heaven. I hope that I make it to heaven. We won't worry about finances, children being naughty, sickness, food, anything worldly. I want that so bad. How do you make a heaven on earth? Somebody show me how.
I rambled, but I am a mom of two pretty much infants. That aren't twins. There's alot on this mind of mine:)
- appendics ruptured?
- pre mature baby Saylor?
- looking for an apartment?
- living at father in laws?
Yeah, I don't really want to talk about any of those things. I just want to talk about singing.
I freaking miss singing. I sing in my head because I can't sing out loud because I will wake my babies. it sucks. I miss singing, playing my guitar and writing dramatic songs. But now the drama I face is on a whole new level. No one wants to hear about getting thrown up on, or trying to find something for dinner, or not having any money. I'm not a country singer. So I want to say, I want to sing. For a long time. And I may want singing lessons.
I also, started exercising. I love it. It's challenging and fun. And I love Leandro, he is such a motivator:) And I lost over 7 pounds in like 2 weeks. It's great!
Marriage. Freaking hard. I never knew it would be so hard. I don't think I am very good at it. I want everything to be perfect, but, I don't want to try. It's awful. Being a lazy romantic is just not fun.
Apartment shopping. excited about that. I love finding a new place and making it my own. I just hope this next one is nice and fits our personalities.
Babies. Saylor and Amrielle. I love you girls. Saylor you are adorable! Amrielle you are beautiful and so smart and such a cute personality! I love both of you!
Patrick. We have two kids. CRAZY! No Wonder we are stressed.
Over all my testimony has been "tested" my happiness has been thwarted, and my stress levels have jumped sky high, I really think Patrick and I screwed ourselves by not choosing the right. We have had so many challenges that I never would have dreamed of. It's so hard to try to be better when you feel like you always make mistakes and God doesn't really want to help you. But knowing deep in side that He does and always loves you. It's crazy here at the Gatewood's. But I know.... think... hope... that everything will even out in the end. Heaven. I hope that I make it to heaven. We won't worry about finances, children being naughty, sickness, food, anything worldly. I want that so bad. How do you make a heaven on earth? Somebody show me how.
I rambled, but I am a mom of two pretty much infants. That aren't twins. There's alot on this mind of mine:)
