Patrick quit his job at verizon. To everyone it may seem like a very bad idea. Especially after having a new addition to the family, and our lease almost being up. And having bills to pay... But I could never think that. His job there was awful. For like 8 hours a day he just sat at a computer and pretty much had people complain, harrass and say very mean things to him because of their cell phone problems. Some people would call him the F word and mean stuff like that. And make him feel stupid for not being able to fix thier problems. There is only so much he could do though. He hates being on phones any way so it was making him pretty depressed. When he would come home he was always in such a terrible mood. So he quit his job and has been applying to many places. The only thing good about that job was the pay, and now he totally knows how to work the system:)
The first job he has is working at Dominos being a delivery driver, which he really likes. He is super good with directions and being able to find places and he likes spending time alone. He also is gone at night so we get to spend the day together and he gets to be with Amrielle more often. Which he will miss when he gets another job.
He has two more interviews one for a really nice hotel and another for a Cake Decorating place. haha it sounds gay but he is a really good artist and we have made a ton of cakes together for my nieces and nephews birthdays. And he is really good. So either way we just need some moola to get everything going and the stress to leave our little apartment.
We are still trying to figure out our situation. It is pretty stressful. We can't just bum around living at family's homes and stuff because now we have our sweet little daughter. And to move her around and be on a different schedule with her... I can't even think about it. Its so hard because we are so comfortable here. We have everything we need. And we have to pick up and leave. We do know that it will all work out though. We are being tested to have faith in God. And how else do we learn to except we have trials.
I wish I would just know what to do. And what is best. I wish we were more smart with our decisons and our money handeling. I wish we had saved more and spent less. Although we pretty much only ever have money for food and gas. We never get anything new. And havent for awhile. It makes me realize how little you need to be happy. I just have patrick, my baby girl a roof over my head. And food and water. And I have never been happier. Especially since I get to swim again! I am already getting a little bit of color to my pastey white body! And patrick and i have so much fun swimming. Usually we get Amrielle to sleep in her stroller so we can swim for abou a half hour while checking one her often, or having one of our friends josh keep an eye on her, or we pull out her car seat and set her in the shade nearer the pool so we can constantly see her. She loves watching the water and seeing us move.
She is such a smart girl! She rolled over for the first time last week! I cried! I never thought I would be the emotional mom but i got so excited to see her progress! I was so proud and surprised! I love her so much! she is my little angel baby!
She has started making little high pitched vocal sounds. I think its because I sing to her SO much! Her favorite is "You are my Sunshine" every morning when she wakes up with a smile. I get her into a clean diaper and sing her that song and she smiles and smiles! And tries to sing along. She gets so excited! She also Loves "Pat-a-Cake" she just scrunches up so tight when I lift her arms to "Throw them in the pan!" she loves music! She always have. I just started singing her to sleep and I looked up the lyrics to the lullaby song. and I found the sweetest words to it**. I sing it to her now and she always falls asleep so much faster while I am rocking her in our rickety rocking chair. Her little sweaty cheek next to mine. Its the best part of the night.
I just love everything in the moment right now. And when I think of ALL of the stuff that is going on, and things of the future I just get worried. I have realized all we can do is right now. And do the best we can with money and the best we can with knowledge we have of different jobs, apartments and other things. I know in the end it will all work out. No matter how hard it gets. We arent going to die from these trials:)
Patrick is so my man right now. He is so funny and kind and sweet and handsome! He loves on Amrielle and even sings her songs while changing her diapers like I do! His songs arent as pretty, and they may never rhyme, but he sings! And she loves it just as much! He has supported our family so well and I just want to give him some love! Especially because I am a crazy wife that doesn't know what she wants. And he loves me anyway! He is the best husband and hardest worker I know. I love him and I love the creation we made together. Our sweet Princess Baby!
Let's Make Another One!
**The Lyrics to Lullaby, and Goodnight are:
Sleepy Head, Close your eyes,
Mommy's Right here beside you
To Protect you from harm
You'll Awake in my arms.
Angels are near, So you'll be safe here.
Angels are near, so you'll be safe here.
They are the most true words from a lullaby I have found.
I love them and Treasure them.
