36 Weeks Pregnant!

So... Pretty much another week has come! Along with another AMAZING baby shower that I got so many diapers and wipes. That was the best shower, I got the last little pieces I needed for our little baby to come into this world! Now all I need are things for me. We need the stuff for when we go home after our babies birth. So all my post-partum stuff. I am looking forward to getting those things.

We have the cutest crib and crib bedding ever! Patrick set it up for her and he did such a good job! He is so smart and funny. I just love that he is involved and wants to do sweet stuff like that. I made a little Journal for our baby girl when I was about 13 weeks pregnant and we write in it every time she does something like her first movements, her first hiccups, names we have chosen for either a boy or a girl, her ultra sounds, when we found out she was a girl, and all of our appointments with our midwife we have written about. And I swear when I read "love, Dad" at the bottom of his pages I just balled! It was so tender to me to think that he is the Daddy of our little daughter! It is so sweet to me when he writes about how I am indecisve about her name and about changing my midwives and all that stuff.

It is just so surreal thinking about having this little child be with us hopfully always. I never thought about it that way until tonight. Our little baby will grow up and will always be ours. We made her. And God blessed us with her. It is so amazing and spiritual to me. And I try not to think that it's scary. Because I just want her to know that love from her parents is most important. And to follow our example... Which puts alot of pressure on us as parents because we need to be good people. We have to be the example. These are the things I think of being 36 weeks and close to our babies birthday.

By the way! Easter was SO amazing! my mom made the best fried chicken I have ever eaten! And ALL of my family was there! It was so great! And everyone got to say when they thought our baby would be born and how much she would weigh It was so fun, and special to me. I am really glad Patrick and I got to be there for those things. But that is the last time I get to travel because I am getting so close to her birthday. I hope my family comes here to visit us... Alot!

I really wish I could go to Marilee's wedding! It just kills me! I want to see all of my friends! And I want Lauren and I to get prego pictures together! It just makes me wish I was closer. But I know that I wouldn't be able to birth our child the way I wanted to if I was any other place so it is such a blessing that we are in Albuquerque. Although I would like to move shortly after our baby is born.

P.s. My fingers are getting SOOOO fat! I can't even fit my wedding ring on anymore and we bought an 8$ ring at Wal Mart and now that one is close to not fitting either. It is so crazy. Me feet haven't swollen at all! Just my hands they look like baby hands with the dimples on the knuckles. Oh and my belly has swollen:) haha of course!

So yeah 36 weeks and our baby is growing so strong! And could be born anytime. Its probably not good if she is born now but she can be born and live and be healthy so that is amazing to me! Also Patrick is done working Sundays so he gets to go to church with me again! I am so happy! It was really sad that I had to go to church alone and pregnant! I looked like I was just some unfortunate girl that got pregnant and left by her man! So its good that he gets to go with me, so people can know that we are indeed married!

So that is what is going on!

To Baby Girl:

I love you Shoogie! You are so precious! And Jensen thinks we should name you Princess Glitter or Jensina... both BEAUTIFUL! We might choose another name though just in case those ones get too popular:) Also more and more people that I don't even know and will never see again are excited for you to be born haha. Its weird how people can be so nice to me just because you are in my belly. You are such a special girl, and your movements are beautiful like a dancer and I can tell you are going to be so loved by everyone that meets you just because you are so close to heaven. I love you Princess!
See you soon:)

35 Weeks Pregnant Today

I am 35 weeks pregnant with 35 days left of pregnancy what a cool time!

I just want to say how much I absolutely LOVE being pregnant! People ask me all the time if I am so ready to just have this baby. And of course I am excited to have our baby girl, but I love this time.

Feel the Love!

It is the first FIRST pregnancy I will ever have and I love feeling her move and seeing her back swivel and turn around under my skin, I love her tiny hiccups that she gets almost everyday, strong lungs for strong crying:) and of course for singing! I love how close I already feel to her, and how I know when she is moving just to get more comfortable to sleep. I love Patrick reading her childrens books that we check out at the Corrales Library. I love rubbing my belly with oil and seeing her wake up slowly after awhile. I love that we are already frinds and that I talk to her everyday and give her love through my hands and spirit.

Can I just say that it is the best time to be pregnant! my friends are all pregnant so all our babies will be friends! Lauren, Emily, Danielle(no gender yet), Katie and Becca, are all having boys!  Along with other friends who just had their babies- Tasha, Amy, Megan, D'Coda. Tasha and I are the only ones having girls so far isn't that crazy! I LOVE seeing their baby pictures and knowing that although every pregnancy is different from every woman we still have a bond that we are all going to go through labor and birth and complications and miracles. And I can't wait!

Birth Plans

As of now I am seeing a midwife named Kelley who works at this tiny birthing center that mostly specializes in home births. The office is just an old adobe pink house that sits on the corner around UNM. There is only one bedroom for a birth to take place and when there is a birth happening all other appointments are cancelled and its just for Me, Patrick our midwives and no drugs available! My birth center has a big  open room that they do yoga classes in where I can relax and stretch and there is just enough room for a birthing pool if that's the way you want to go. (which I am planning on) pretty much you can't "plan" on anything happening the way you want in birth I have found out. So lets hope I get to play in some water for a bit:) As for things being unplanned- For instance... I wasnt expecting my hips to feel like a barbie's hips where you can just snap the legs right off! My hips are my demise! I need to seriously see a chiropractor which my sister megan advised.  And the heartburn... wowza. I thought it would never come now i have it constantly even after I drink water!

Unplanned Complications

 Of course if my midwife sees anything complicate they will take me immediately to UNM Hospital which works very well with natural birth patients so I feel comfortable either way. And they are very close by. And I hear very friendly. All I want is our baby to be safe so I am not STUCK on having a all natural birth if it can't be that way. But i hope I can have the calm birth my baby and I need.

Wish me luck with the natural birth:) most people think I am crazy for doing it but honestly to each his own. I don't think people who get epidruals are bad parents at all! Or else all of my sisters would to me be bad parents and I think they are fierce! But for me, I just want our baby to be with us the whole time she is alive. I want her to know that we are there to protect her and be with her and love her from the moment she is born. I don't trust people easily and to have my baby taken away right after being born really freaks me out. So that is my main reason for having a natural non intrusive birth. Yes it will be intense and hard work, and that is why they call it labor! And although I may have thoughts arise that maybe I won't be able to do it. I know that the women helping me are going to do all they can to help me be safe and comfortable and i trust them. They have done this for a long time and have alot of knowledge that can help relieve and sooth  the the pains I may feel. So that to me makes all the difference!

BIRTHDAY MAY <3

When I think about our daughters birthday the first thing that comes to mind is... What if she is a boy! and we have ALL girl stuff! So I packed plain white onsies and a gray baby sleeper just in case:) and the next thing I think of is What will we name her! We have several boy names that we love, but girl names are SOOOOO hard! The ones we have picked out are adorable, but I can't just say, "we are definetley naming her_____!"  I realzied that it is okay that we don't have a set name, although that would be WAY easier, and less stressful! I wish I was like Megan who just knew her babies name was jude. But for me I think the deciding factor will be seeing her face.

So.... That is about it. I have sever hip pain and crazy heartburn! but I have have IMEASURABLE love for our Princess Glitter Baby. Who is going to be the best gift in the world! And I have to say that I think Mothers should get gifts on their childrens birthdays too. Because man we do alot of work!

Hubby Boy!

I love you Patrick for being my best friend and lover and husband! you are so kind massaging my hips for me and helping me stretch and for getting me infinte amounts of water! I love you so much you are already the best father. I love when you pray for her and sing to her:) and rub my magic belly! I love you so much! You are my MAN!

Much Love!